I adored freaks

'How old are you?'

'Stay?'

'Single?'

'Vegetarian?'

 O.o

What are these have to do with anything if you want to be friend with me? What? If I'm 59 years old you won't be friend with me? If I live on the streets we can't be friend? Even if, this is a big IF, married, have three kids we can't be friend? I don't get people. That's why I keep saying how sux people can be, this is one of the reason. But I can't blame them either. They just being themselves. They think I could a be a prospect in their life. Someone that worth their time to spent on. I mean we need to know that there's something waiting for us at the end in every single acts in our life. Isn't it? That just humans. We need to be rewarded in our faith. But didn't God asked us to love each other equally? It depends on how you define it. There's a lot about the definition of love. Your siblings, the animals, the nature. What I want to say here is love with Humanity itself. There's a saying that goes:

'Be the milk of human kindness'

It means being good to other people no matter what race they are, their looks, their place in society. Love them as you love yourself. We don't want others to judge us, yet we failed to the same to them. But if your pour to much milk on them, they tend to get attach with you. It sounds great isn't it? Its not. Not a single bit. 

For me personally, I don't mind it really. Maybe its because of my addiction towards game. A lot of ppl asked me this. Don't you get bored always on it?. Nope, not at all haha. I grew up with games since I was 6. Think so. It became part of me. Part of who I am. That just me. Games help me a lot and better than people does. Seriously, you can take away my phone, my internet, but not my consoles. They are my life, my everything. I do have friends, a lot of friends, but those that I'm close with, that truly understand me, are just few. These guys truly understand me, but they wasn't around 24/7, they got their life to live, and I respect that. I do get bored sometimes. So I did what other people would do, make new friends. Since I'm introvert sack of shit, I did it mostly on Social Media. Then, THIS happened. Do I need to submit my CV for you to be friend with me? I mean I really don't mind if you're ugly as a troll, don't shower yourself for days, swears a lot cause I am that too! But not you! You have to know what I do for a living, don't you? Why can't we talk about unnecessary things? I like that kind of talk. Makes me forget about this world. Same like how games makes me feel. I have to face the fact not all of what I wanted will be granted on me. But then when someone told me 'how wonderful it is to be remembered by everyone'. I don't see how damn wonderful that is. Its like you have a closet full of clothes, but none of it fits you, makes you comfortable, then why you should keep it? That's what I think.

I do appreciate all the love that being pour on me. But some people don't think that way. They think that I'm an ungrateful asshole that don't appreciate people. It sucks!!! It fucking sucks!!! You can't everyone happy. I just have to face the fact that I can't stop others from thinking or bad mouth about me. But yeah that's none of my business. Well these are my rants. Peace out. Assalamualaikum.