Life

Primal Fear. Saw. Watchmen. No Country for Old Men. Old Boy. Star Wars Episode lll. Se7en. Troy. Braveheart. Reservoir Dogs. Sin City. Arlington Road. Der Untergang. 300. Cloverfield. Cabin in the Woods. Hannibal.

I'm not going to write about movies, but yes this is a list of movies. Some of them are great, some don't. In my opinion, all of them are great. They are realistic. They reflect the true colours of Life. What are they have in common? Think about it.

Yes, the villains won in all of this movie. It doesn't give us what we want. It doesn't turned out as what as we expected. That's why I said these movies are great. I stand by my statement. You see, the ending of these movies depict Life itself. Life isn't a fairytale. At least my life. It's cruel and unfair. It doesn't give me what I want. It doesn't give me what I need either. It gives me only misery. Unlike most of story nowadays, where the protagonist got beat up by the antagonist then found the will to get revenge on the antagonist and live happily ever after. Nope. Not in my life. Life just came at me swung at every angle and smashed me to pieces. Every single damn day.

People and movies nowadays tend to forget this, there are some situation that you just couldn't recover from. You never will. Sorry to break these to you, but this is the truth. The truth fucking hurts.

But that doesn't make me to give up on living. I still woke up every single day and just face through all the shit that life threw at me. I did thought about suicide sometimes and even now, but I just felt that wasn't the answer. For me, suicide doesn't end the chances of Life getting better, suicide eliminates the possibilities of Life getting better. That's what I think. The thought of my loved ones got me through everyday. My neighbor especially. Her so called problems. I hate it sometimes, but that's my secret of happiness. For me, the key to being happy isn't the search for meaning, it's to keep yourself busy with unimportant bullshit and eventually, you will be dead. Yayyy! Sounds depressing isn't it? Well it got me through everyday so I'm going to keep doing it. Well these are my rants. Peace out. Assalamualaikum.